umm, just wanna warn y’all first that this is pretty freaky but i dont think theres anything wrong with me and i’m pretty satisfied w/life right now so without further ado, i’d like to share an experience i had a couple days ago…
i believe this happened monday night. i had taken a nice shower and done a bit of studying when i decided i’d call it quits for the day. i lied on my bed at around 2am listening to some music, wanting to fall asleep asap because i had a long tuesday ahead of me. i was thinking of random things when i suddenly started thinking of bad “what ifs” (i.e. what if someone decided to break into my house right now) so i had this really weird feeling. i tried to push the feelings aside when i started thinking of my parents. you know sometimes you get the feeling that something bad has happened… yes, quite farfetched and i tried to convince myself everything was ok but i couldnt help but pick up the phone and call. when my dad picked up, i didnt know what to say. i convinced him i’d just finished studying coz i had midterms on friday (by now it was about 3)… i could hear my mom in the background. my dad told me when she hears my voice on the phone at this type of hour, she gets very worried. i talked to her for a bit, assuring her that nothing was wrong and i was ok. i suddenly had the urge to cry but i kept the tears in. my mom told me that it was enough for today, that i should hang up now coz i still had school tomorrow. i hung up, quite satisfied because my parents were obviously ok. suddenly i burst into tears. liquid just kept flowing outta my eyes like someone had turned on the faucets of my eyes. i think, altho i cannot be certain, that the nature of these tears came from parent-sickness, that i really missed parents then and there. weird coming from someone who didnt quite grow up with her parents…
i cant explain what happened because the next day i felt the same as i did before the occurence. i do have to say that that time of the month came on tuesday. so….. mood swings as the main cause?!? those are some crazy mood swings i got there. but… feel free to comment!
*comments*
that’s similar to what happen to me that one time you came over… remember the incontrollable tears. Anyways, I think it’s built up worry or built up something. I hope you are feeling better. If you ever need to someone to talk to call me. It’s a hard feeling to explain and sometime you just need to cry it out.
~Jewl
Posted 10/25/2003 4:57 PM by Jewl4JC
don’t worry mindy.. i do that a lot too.. and i didn’t grow up w/ very attentive parents around either.. but i still love them like crazy..
Posted 10/25/2003 5:08 PM by TaiwaneseGurl
oh girlie..im so sorrie…i know it must be hard not to be wit your family…. i mean…you may not always be happy wit them…but its nice to have them around… you know??
but yea…Im so glad i got to see you on thurs…dude…. how is it that i dont see you on campus?? if you are starving at home..give me a call… ill swipe you in to get some “yummy” dorm food…or puzzles [EVEN BETTER]… hahaa….hey…its food….
Posted 11/2/2003 7:48 PM by UCLAchickmunk
Girls have strange body chemistry - hmm, maybe u see why sometimes i begin to think that a family is just 4 random ppl when im drunk, believe it or not some of my crack pot theories have a small basis in the truth! muha! speaking of drinking, when are we going to drink again? im so bored… well, its seems like ur doing okay at LA, and it turns out i have to friggin sell tickets for BOOT CAMP, how friggin lame is that? what am i? a lame ass promoter?!?!!?! haha, okay jp, I just hate sellin stuff, anyways, ill talk w/u later, oh, and i was wonderin, is our annual ski trip still happenin? well, keep me updated, i talk you later
Posted 11/6/2003 12:11 AM by JordanJong
