i find it hard for me to appreciate the things i have…. i find fault in things and when those are corrected, i become more critical and dig deeper for more faults. it makes me so miserable sometimes and i have such an urge to get away or even get rid of those things. yet at the same time, i don’t wanna leave ’cause i realize how much those things mean so much to me….so much so that it makes me wanna cry.
what a girlie thing to say… ya, so?! i should be allowed a couple girlie moments every now and then.
i need to get back to what i used to like doing…get back in the groove of things….basketball….working out…giving friends a call just to say hi ’cause i had a couple minutes to kill….add em one at a time…keeping each until it’s no longer worth my time…making every minute count….giving every minute what it’s worth….
am i just not appreciating everything i have again?

*comments*

wow, the reflective side of mindy i’ve never seen before…
you sure are allowed girly moments, just don’t let them get in the way of your decision making.
Posted 3/19/2005 5:25 AM by jayzien

hmmm i think u just simply dun have enuf time for everyone~ it’s not ure fault… it’s a part of life… sooner or later u’ll hafta leave a lot of friends behind and pursuit ure future career or other stuff… and u’ll meet new ppl…. it’s hard… wutever u do~ just dun blame ureself la~ just there so many ppl but there’s only one you~ shrug~ dunno if that helps or i’m just not getting wut u are saying~ hha
Posted 3/20/2005 2:28 AM by SaoYeh

You know who you are, who you were and who you want to be. Clashing those worlds together is the problem. I suggest getting rid of your sleep. It’s done wonders for me. If that doesn’t work, then I guess you can just make sacrifices and choose what is most important to you.
The question is, why are you searching for ways around whatever you are finding faults in?
Study hard. I hear it’s your finals week.
Posted 3/21/2005 3:03 AM by Number1TA